Stranded in Indonesia

Hey Val here are your confessional prompts for episode 10. As always, more are coming.

1) Looks like you're game is getting noticed after being a vote away from leaving, how do you feel about this and what will you do to take that target off your back in the next vote?

2) How has this game changed for you over time? Have people's initially perceived positions in the tribe changed much?

1) Dammit. It got out of hand at the start of the merge. Like, I just kept doing and doing. It almost feels like it's too late to get rid of my target. I thought I was off free because of the last votes.
1b) I told you I could trust my girls... for now
2) I was so in the back seat, now I'm still kinda in the backseat but I'm putting my hand on too many people's steering wheels.

Could you explain these things a little more to us? A lot of us have really not been able to fully understand how you play because if the short confessionals. What do you mean by "kept doing and doing"? and what do you mean by "for now"?

The metaphors are cute but we kind of need more.

I'm not trying to talk in metaphors. Oops. All I meant is that, I started acting more. Suggesting more. Doing more. I haven't hung back.

For now. I gave the example of how Nad and Jac rely on me. That won't always be the case. You can't trust someone when they have better options. Right now, I'm they're better option, especially since I'm a target. They should keep me.

their* better option

Were you hanging back a lot before? One of the voting confessionals said you were the glue that held everyone together, how does that work?

I would say, let's work together. Things would progress more naturally, premerge that is. I've been changing votes like every other moment post merge. It's different. Gluers, I suppose, get noticed post-merge. I thought it was a utr position until I saw these votes.

Do you have any guesses as to why you've become so visible all of a sudden?

When you're glueing one tribe together at OG Yali, it's fine cuz it's the alliance you plan on working with. Brining two tribes together, I mean everybody is going to see you and having varying wants and desires in this game is gonna see this community building person as an obvious issue.

But, I also want to give myself credit for being able to kiss and make up with Dale and Joaq... who saved my ass tonight. That's pretty big. I should have felt secure that their rivalry with Drew etc. would be enough to keep me, but I still got v worried tonight.

we're working us 3 girls with Dale and Joaq, though. So, obviously they're ideally gonna want to flip on us before it's too late. Do we have to vote out one of our own? I don't see a way around it, yet.

I think this is trouble brewing, but Reed and Drew are spreading our Yali girl alliance out like wildfire. This is not a good place to be. I just think we might have to ditch Jaclyn. But I don't know if anyone will vote that way. Joaq and Dale, logically, should flip now, right?

So what's the move? Flip before them? Ditch one of hte girls? How do you counteract the obvious move when supposedly your alliance is exposed?

Jeff Probst wrote:So what's the move? Flip before them? Ditch one of hte girls? How do you counteract the obvious move when supposedly your alliance is exposed?

Jeff, I don't know. I'm really confused. You know, if they want me out and I suggest Jac, they are gonna walk over and get another number in her. *Think, Think, Think Val

i guess what I mean to say is... are you more concerned with keeping those three girls tgoetehr and goign to the end with them or are you only concerned about getting yourself to the end. Seems like having to work for 2 other people is harder.

It's good, as you can see, for an extra two secure votes to absolutely defend me, but it is harder, as you say, because it's cumbersome and an obvious and easy target.

I'm trying to convince Reed that he's a threat as much as I am. How he was willing to vote me, his allies are willing to vote him. I just hope it works.

So what's the plan exactly though? Who would you target?

I'm thinking So. She's the non-target. The floater that is exactly the opposite of me and hopefully I can convince Reed that, too.

No matter what I either have to trust two people who have voted against me to make it really work (Reed and Joaq).

Though I still have to remember that Once we oust So, it's us obvious 3 girls vs 4 guys who should work together.

If I don't decide on So, it should be Drew or Jac.

Summed up:

So is my best choice to keep other targets around.
Jac is my best choice to get reed's trust.
Drew, if it's doable, is my best choice to fend off the guys' alliance possibility.

Now my girls are starting to get anxious.

Dale apparently pre-voted for me, which I'm not too surprised about if it's true. Drew said this, so I have to take it with a grain of salt. He postured this to Jac, and now she's confused. What if it's just better in her mind to just vote for me and get the target off the other two girls' backs.

I feel like I'm falling out of the frying pan right into the fire and nobody's gonna care enough to help me out.

I absolutely have to win immunity... but if my previous performances are any indication of how I'll perform in the future, it's not bloody likely.

I believe in youuuu