- Wed Apr 27, 2016 9:59:16 pm
#1414
Welp, this sucks!
I had a really bad feeling about tonight, as I usually do! They said it was a respect vote, but this is like... the WORST way to go out. I wasn't able to establish trust with any of those guys the way Dan did, he played this situation a lot better than I did and secured his short-term game WAY better. His way worked better than my way, so hats off to him and I really do hope he can go far in the game. He sees things pretty similar to the way I see them and I kind of feel bad having so much doubt in him while we were here, just because it's who I am to doubt everyone, right down to my top ally!
I think it
might have been a mistake for them in the short term to send me out if it had anything to do with idol fear or me flipping back to Asmat, BUT long term, I know that they do NOT need me and IMO even if it wasn't the right move on paper, it wouldn't have been the right move to trust me either. Their gut instinct was totally correct. I don't know what would have happened if Joaq weren't immune, but this still would've been the best way for them to go IMO. There's no one less loyal than me in the entire cast, so it's on me that I wasn't able to hide that better. A lot of my PMs to Dale in retrospect were VERY half-assed while Dan was wisely taking the opportunity to make sure he was 100% in the Yali nest. I did not want to appear as a social threat but sort of realized that with the way my PMs were going, I could easily fall into the trap of being someone who no one really has that MAJOR connection with, yet there's still enough there where I can be painted as a social threat and someone who could be a problem. Ugh!
Game was awesome, one of the most fun pre-merges I've ever played in: it had totally original people in the cast, different personalities, lot of things. I'm obviously pissed off that I didn't win, we all know how I feel about that.
I'm really glad I played! I think something I may take out of this is that I rode the fence too much and should've gone ALL IN with my chips with Dale and those guys (at least outwardly), maybe even doing a little bit of what Dan did (to a lesser extent
) in going after the other tribe. My goal was self-preservation, yet I was ALWAYS near the bottom since the flip, and there was a lot of risk in playing it the way I did, which bit me!
Of those I interacted with I pretty much liked everyone in spite of anything I may have said in here.
My confessionals always sound negative as hell and then I see them after the game and I'm like "wow I'm an asshole", but it's not really reflective of the way I actually feel. I just figured it would somewhat make up for my relatively blah board presence to go big in here, that's kind of how I approach it!
It's been a blast! Rooting for Dan mainly since he made every day fun for me, but there's no one I'm rooting against. I KNOW he can make me proud with this goat strategy if he truly dedicates himself to it! Pretend to be mad, get back in with Dale and those guys, replace me with Joaquin, and go all the way. Whatever you gotta do!
