[Kelly Wigles]

- Mon Apr 18, 2016 8:58:13 pm #781 Hi Sierra! Here are some quick questions to get you going on your confessionals for this next round, feel free to answer them whenever.

1) How did you feel about the vote and tribal council in general, did you feel like you learned any more or less about your tribe and your dynamics together?

2) So initially wanted a group vote on what to do with the idol, what are your thoughts on that whole situation?

3) Could you give us a ranking of all the people left in your tribe based on trustworthiness? Explain to us as well why they rank that way.

4) Also, So played the idol for you last night, does that affect your relationship with her moving forward at all? Do you trust her more? or do you trust her less?

[Sierra]

- Tue Apr 19, 2016 4:24:48 pm #867 Hey Wigles!

I'll answer #1 and 4 sort of together. Yeah it was a bit of an eye-opener. Seems to me So decided, either on her own or with help, that she wanted to either set me up as a social threat, or make a veiled attempt to secure my loyalty, or some other shady crap that I felt could get me into hot water and I don't like. We all know how surface-level and transparent that gesture really was given the nature of the vote itself.

The Max hinky vote was something I figured might happen. The paranoid self-centered part of me is nervous that it was an attempt to set me up in some way considering I've been vocal about wanting Max out since pre-Shirin exit. Either way, I'd like to believe no one would try to do that with messages attached to votes, but you never know what people may have planned.

I hope that Max vote doesn't bother anyone and it's just shrugged off as an attempt to stir up drama, which is what it was. I may try later to deduce who it may have been based on the comments, but I have no suspects. Could have come from anywhere and still make sense to me. My read on these guys as players is iffy so far.

My thoughts on So wanting a group vote for the idol was either she got scared due to that late pressure from Dan and Joe at Tribal, or something else. Deep down I know I'd rather the idol be gone than still in her possession. She already serves as default tiebreaker at all pre-merge tribals, and an idol to boot could have been an obstacle. However she came to that decision, I'm happy she did. And now Kelly can't hide behind wanting to align with the idol as she mercilessly tries to flip me, at least for now. Or so it seems.

This vote is of great importance. I've spent what time I've had on here today trying to mend fences with my 5-person alliance after that idol was played on me, steer the vote in Max's direction and clear my name from being a target tonight. I know So, Jenn, Max and Kelly can get me tonight if they want to in a 4-4 tiebreaker, and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm hoping they feel like I'd still be more beneficial to have around and be less angry than Dan and company if they stage a flip without me? That I could be siphoned over to continue to work with them in a situation like that? Playing the fence is not something I wanted to do, and if I had my way I would never have been in this situation, but it's my own fault. And now I want to fix this in a way that doesn't splinter Asmat irreparably.

Trustworthiness rank... is so hard. I can't help but rank Dan #1 right now, which may be a mistake. He certainly is sharp enough to realize that I have not been fully open with him, and hopefully that's not enough to put me in his crosshairs right now. I hate to cop out of this answer but I couldn't actually put names into a ranking because I really don't know who I can trust, if anyone.

I THINK So has slowly begun warming up to me over time, hence our slowly improving game discussions and the fact that we seem to be very similar as Survivor fans and players. We've established a decent enough rapport with our shared TV show interests and things like that. Gun to my head, I like her better than most of the tribe, but this for me is about positioning myself as hard or impossible to boot for the duration of this game, and I don't think turning on the Amigos achieves that. All it does is expose me as a liar and flipper at F17. I get the appeal to "play Survivor", but I want to believe I'll be able to hitch my wagon to either side of things after our next vote, using my relationships with people. So my goal is to either make both sides happy, or at the very least make them feel like "okay, there's still a chance with Sierra. Let's hope she comes to her senses".

Being on the wrong side of a big move isn't the worst thing in the world in Survivor. Being on the wrong side of it and being the boot is the really bad thing. I really do not want the Amigos to doubt me. And if they do doubt me, hopefully they still doubt me less than they doubt Kelly thanks to Dan hopefully vouching for me.

I believe, given the info I have, that So's idol play last night was a mistake. Maybe even one made out of panic, and if so... that's something that Dan can put on his resume. If the Amigos take charge of this tribe, a lot of it can be attributed to Dan's persistence and guts in sticking with his argument that So needs to use it at all costs. It took a lot of effort from him, but he did it and my hat is off.

The game I'm playing right now is not my bread and butter. I hate that I'm being viewed as one of the "sought afters" right now, at least to my face. But it's fun. It'll take a few more Tribals for me to be fully sure how this pre-merge is going to go, but it's safe to say that my confidence level from before the first round has been lowered. The stakes have been raised a lot more quickly than I ever anticipated, which is a testament to the cast.

I underestimated these people. Now it's up to me to figure out some way to create a path for myself to be successful. Nothing would surprise me at the next vote. Ideally we take out Max 7-1 with no debate. Kelly knows she can form a majority one way or the other. With So's tiebreaker she has the majority, and with the Amigos she has the majority. She clearly likes the So side better. If she comes with the Amigos it will speak volumes about her current level of loyalty to me, since I know if I agree to flip she would love it.

Thing is, there's always next round if we really wanna flip. But odds are good we can win 2 of the next 3 immunities, which is when I'd expect the swap to hit... I'm still holding out some hope for better positioning if we do swap. Also it may be too soon to turn given the other idol(s) that may begin floating around.

Will we be given notice when the hidden idol becomes a thing?

[Kelly Wigles]

- Tue Apr 19, 2016 4:38:12 pm #869 I'm not sure how this game will treat the hidden idols but given that there appears to be a caption on the idol thread that confirms whether it's been hidden or not, just keep an eye out.

So the main target, you're saying, appears to be Max, could you tell us why? Is it just that he's an outsider or what is it about him that makes him the logical next boot?

[Sierra]

- Tue Apr 19, 2016 4:49:55 pm #870 For me, I think it puts me in a good position for the next Tribal. I haven't clicked with him but what I haven't told anyone is that I recognize that it's almost all my fault that we haven't clicked. My lack of a real relationship with Max allows me an excuse to target him without showing any signs of seeming disloyal. I don't know if he's in actuality the main target of the group, but the Amigos sans Kelly have all told me they want him gone, and the Jenn/So/Kelly/presumably Max crew quite obviously want it to be someone else.

Being in the middle (if I even am...) comes with its drawbacks since sometimes like they were talking about on the show last week, it's that swing person who ends up getting fucked. And it could be me. I'd rather get booted early doing what I think is right for my game, than going home doing what I think is wrong.

My lack of bond with Max is half natural, half intentional. I haven't reached out to him all day because I think the cons outweigh the pros. Sounds dumb on paper to like... cut someone off, but knowing how I want him out next and that I have a pretty good idea no idols are in play, all I see that I have to gain from bonding with him now is for my "likable" reputation to be upped even more. As it is, people I want to play with for now are doubting me and I can't have that. What's helping me is I think Kelly has gotten most of the blame for it, thus hopefully shielding me.

Max is an outsider but it appears people have begun bonding with him. They fill me in on it just in time too, right as they need my vote. Outside of Jenn I never heard anyone defend Max in PMs all game, yet today So and Kelly (two people who are IMO pretty sharp players) are suddenly all "we gotta keep him if he helps us in immunity". That argument is... very bad. Very bad on a number of levels, and of course they know that. Did Kelly use knowledge of So's tiebreaker to become confident telling So about the Amigos, hence gaining her undying loyalty and trust and making me look like a wishy-washy piece of shit if I ever flipped? I don't know. I suspect they have to know about the 5-person alliance to an extent, given how much better Kelly likes them than she likes Joe, Joaq and Dan.

I don't think I envision a scenario where they target me tonight as a fuck you for not coming with them, since they still I think know that tribe loyalty is a thing worth considering. Long story made somewhat shorter: Max is probably a great guy and according to Kelly it's his 1st game ever. So I feel bad about doing this, because to an extent I think the first game is the most fun and I always hate to cut that sort of thing short. But he just doesn't fit into what my plans are right now, so IMO he's gotta go. :(

[Vitinho]

- Tue Apr 19, 2016 6:11:55 pm #880 better call saul was fantastic. HOW DARE YOU?

[Sierra]

- Tue Apr 19, 2016 6:36:16 pm #883 Lmao. It was pretty much an excuse to extend the message to add more fluff because I don't wanna be Mrs. One Sentence like I usually am, lol... I loved it too. Show is so fucking good.